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  Praise for the novels of

  ANNE STUART

  “Anne Stuart delivers exciting stuff for those of us who like our romantic suspense dark and dangerous.”

  —Jayne Ann Krentz

  “Brilliant characterizations and a suitably moody ambience drive this dark tale of unlikely love.”

  —Publishers Weekly on Black Ice [starred review]

  “[A] sexy, edgy, exceptionally well-plotted tale.”

  —Library Journal on Into the Fire

  “Stuart knows how to take chances, and this edgy thriller shows how well they can pay off.”

  —Publishers Weekly on Cold As Ice

  “For dark, triumphant romance…Anne Stuart can’t be beaten.”

  —Elizabeth Lowell

  “The plot moves at a breakneck pace, never letting up on the sexual or criminal tension.”

  —Publishers Weekly on Fire and Ice

  “A consummate mistress of her craft.”

  —Romantic Times BOOKreviews

  “[Stuart is] arguably romantic suspense’s most popular novelist.”

  —Publishers Weekly

  Also by

  ANNE STUART

  FIRE AND ICE

  ICE STORM

  ICE BLUE

  COLD AS ICE

  THE DEVIL’S WALTZ

  BLACK ICE

  HIDDEN HONOR

  INTO THE FIRE

  STILL LAKE

  THE WIDOW

  SHADOWS AT SUNSET

  ANNE STUART

  SILVER FALLS

  ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

  It sometimes takes a village to write a book, and I had the best possible people to help.

  First I need to thank Lynda Ward, who’s always there when I need her.

  Sally Fifield, who has the most disturbing imagination possible (and if I find it creepy you know it’s got to be bad).

  Jenny Crusie and Lani Diane Rich spent hours in Campfire helping me clarify where it was going, and every single form of writing software that works on Macs gave me added help, including Scrivener, Save the Cat, Writer’s Dream Kit and Wordist.

  And above all, a special thanks to my Baby Boy Editor, Adam Wilson, who was incredibly patient, incredibly detailed and pretty damned funny.

  Contents

  Prologue

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Prologue

  Jessica Barrowman shivered in her pretty blue dress. She should have brought her raincoat, but it would have covered up the new dress, and she wanted him to see it. He’d told her he loved to see her in blue—it matched the color of her eyes—and ever since, she’d worn nothing but, so much so that her roommate had even remarked on it.

  Jessica had smiled and said nothing. It felt kind of weird to be the other woman, but there was something exciting about the whole secrecy thing. Sneaking around, meeting at out-of-the-way motels, quickies in the back of the car, even going down on him in his office. He liked to wrap her long, silken hair around his body, and when she once talked about cutting it he’d gotten so angry he’d walked away from her and ignored her for three weeks.

  The worst three weeks of her life.

  But he’d come back, and she’d been blissfully happy. There was something so delicious about an older man, not one of the stupid boys she’d dated. He couldn’t care less about football, or rap music, or drinking beer or playing video games.

  He was from a different world—he was sophisticated, elegant, wise. He drank whiskey, and wine, for heaven’s sake. And he’d never, ever try to shove her around like her last boyfriend.

  There were times when she wished she could tell her roommate, Janice, about him. Times when she wanted to tell the whole campus. She’d almost called his wife once, but then thought better of it. She’d made him really mad once, and it had almost scared her. Well, she knew better than to be scared, but still…She couldn’t stand the thought of not seeing him for another three weeks.

  He had a special present, he said. For their three-month anniversary, and she’d bought this new dress on purpose. If Janice had been in the room she would have told her. He was going to tell her he was leaving his wife. She was sure of it. He’d brought her a promise ring, since they couldn’t be engaged until after the divorce, but she knew he loved her. Knew he’d do anything for her.

  She hadn’t liked climbing up the stupid mountain in her new shoes. She was wearing the blue enamel barrettes he’d given her, and she didn’t want to meet him when she was sweaty and out of breath. So she’d started up earlier, with her raincoat and boots, dumping them in the bushes just before she came to the clearing where they’d first declared their love.

  He was already there, waiting for her. He looked at her and smiled, that sweet, lovely smile of his, and she went up and kissed him.

  He kissed her back, holding her hands in his for a moment. “Turn around,” he said, his voice husky with promise. “I want this to be a surprise.”

  She turned, and felt his hands on her shoulders, and she shivered in anticipatory delight. His fingers stroked the sides of her neck, and she made a little sound of pleasure. And then they tightened for a moment.

  It was his favorite kind of sex play, and she was very tolerant. He’d never used it as foreplay before, but she didn’t object, leaning back against him. “Don’t you want to be inside me first?” she whispered, her voice slightly muffled by the pressure of his fingers.

  “Later,” he said, his lips brushing her ear. “Later.” And his fingers tightened.

  Sometimes he liked it when she fought back. Except this time he was scaring her—she didn’t give a shit whether he liked it or not—and she clawed at his hands, trying to yank them away.

  Gloves. Why the fuck was he wearing gloves? She couldn’t breathe…the pain was hard, burning, and she kicked back at him, as hard as she could, but he didn’t seem to notice.

  Things were getting darker, the sound of the falls roaring in her ears, blackness all around, and she thought, I’m dying, and his lips brushed her ear again.

  “I love you, Jessica,” he whispered.

  But by then it was too late, and she heard nothing more.

  He looked down at her. Poor thing, she was covered in mud. He was going to get filthy himself, but he couldn’t leave her like this. She had to know how much he loved her, how much he appreciated her sacrifice.

  He stripped off his clothes, everything but his boots. He turned her over, arranged her carefully, and pushed his hard penis into her unyielding flesh. This was always the best part. It always ended too quickly, but he wept tears of gratitude as he came.

  He pulled away from her, removed the condom and tossed it over the falls. He leaned over and kissed her slack mouth, closed her eyelids and kissed them as well. He unfastened her blue enamel barrettes, letting her hair fall free about her face. And then he rolled her over the edge of the cliff, watching as she danced down the waterfall, her blond hair trailing her body like a wedding veil.

  This had been a mistake—his self-control had been off. He liked to wait a safe amount of time between them. The buildup and the anticipation was almost as delicious as the act itself.

  But something had driven him to move quickly. She’d become possessive too fast. It was w
hy he seldom picked women from his hometown.

  So he’d made his move sooner than he liked. Regret was a foolish emotion, and he rather liked the fact that he never felt any. Needs were acceptable. Emotions were weak.

  Now he should be fine. Calm and collected. And no one would ever guess what had happened up at Silver Falls.

  There’d be no more Jessica, not unless he was very very careful. No, he could wait.

  But then, he’d always been a careful man. She was number thirty-seven, and no one had even begun to suspect. Even though his quest was almost over, he didn’t have to stop indulging his particular appetites.

  He pulled his clothes on. He’d have to burn them. He always burned his clothes, which saddened him. He would have liked to have kept a whole closetful, for souvenirs.

  He had to make do with the barrettes. He held them to his face, sniffing them appreciatively. They smelled like the shampoo she used. And then he put them in his pocket and turned.

  He saw her coat and boots at the last minute, and for a moment he was annoyed. It could have complicated things if he’d missed them, and for a moment he hated her.

  But that moment passed. He threw the coat and boots after her, into the deep, churning water. She was long gone, and the clothing disappeared as well, and he found he could smile again. He could forgive her.

  Lovely Jessica. He’d miss her.

  And he started down the mountain, whistling softly.

  1

  It was raining again. Of course it was, Rachel thought, peering up through the window at the gray, listless sky as her husband’s black BMW pulled into their driveway. In Silver Falls, Washington, it was either raining, about to rain or just had finished raining. Even on an otherwise still night you could hear the rush of the thundering falls up on Silver Mountain, the roar of the water leaching into your brain until you felt as if you were drowning.

  It was little wonder she had this sense of impending doom. There were any number of scientific studies proving the depressing effect of sunless days on human nature. She was used to the hot, sunny climates where she and her daughter had lived during the past ten years. She was simply having a hard time with rain, and gloom and shadows. She’d adapt. Everyone was moving to the Pacific Northwest—she’d grow to love it sooner or later.

  She smoothed the discreet black shift down over her full hips, her hands restless. David wasn’t going to be happy with her—she’d missed another appointment with the lawyer, she’d failed to meet him at his office and she’d let Sophie spend the night with friends on a school night rather than attend Stephen Henry’s reading. David wouldn’t argue with her, of course. Not David. He would look terribly disappointed, and that was far more effective than any number of screaming tantrums.

  The thought of mild-mannered David throwing a tantrum was enough to make her grin. He pulled the BMW to a stop exactly two and a half feet from the garage, opened the door and stuck out his black umbrella, unfurling it before he stepped out of the car into the light mist. He caught Rachel’s smile, and he smiled back, though his expression was tinged with that damnable, omnipresent disappointment.

  “You missed our three-o’clock meeting at the lawyer’s,” he greeted her, clinking cheekbones with her in a ritual sign of affection. “I thought you were going to make sure you got there.”

  Guilt annoyed her, but she felt it anyway. “I’m so sorry, David,” she said, trying to sound penitent. “I just got caught up in work.” Which was a lie. She’d looked up at the faint glow of her watch in the darkroom, saw that she had plenty of time to get to their appointment and then promptly ignored it.

  “This is the third time, Rachel,” he said with utmost patience. “Are you having second thoughts about letting me adopt Sophie? It was your idea in the first place.”

  That wasn’t exactly how Rachel remembered it, but she didn’t bother correcting him. Being married meant making compromises, being tactful, something she could always work on.

  “Don’t be ridiculous,” she said. “There’s nothing I want more than for us to be a family. I just get…distracted.”

  He reached out and brushed an affectionate hand through her tangled red hair. “Always a dreamer, aren’t you, Rachel?” he said, some of the disapproval vanishing. “Your daughter’s more responsible than you are.”

  She took an instinctive step backward, trying to push her wild hair back into a semblance of order. David was a lovely man, but he had an unfortunate tendency to be ever so slightly patronizing. “I’m perfectly responsible when it’s important,” she said, keeping the edge out of her voice.

  “And my adopting Sophie isn’t important?” The disappointment was back in full, and Rachel bit back an instinctive retort. He hated it when she was bitchy, and she hated it as well. For Sophie’s sake, most of all.

  But then, Sophie wasn’t there at the moment. “You know it is, David. But there isn’t any hurry, is there? We’ve only been married four months, and I don’t know about you but I’m planning to stay married for the next fifty years. There’s no need to rush into anything.” She tried her most winning smile, the smile that had first caught his eyes six months ago in San Francisco, even if it was a little tight around the edges.

  “Of course not,” David said easily. That was what she’d first loved about him. His ability to take things in stride, including her temper. “Are you ready to go? We’re running late as it is. You know how my father likes to have his audience gathered before he launches into a reading.”

  “I know,” she said, glumly, unable to summon up much more enthusiasm. David’s father, Stephen Henry Middleton, professor emeritus of Silver Falls College, self-styled poet laureate of the Pacific Northwest, should have been a welcome part of the package. She hadn’t known any kind of father for the past thirteen years, not since she’d been kicked out of the house for being seventeen and pregnant, and Stephen Henry was born to be a patriarch. He doted on an unappreciative Sophie and managed just the right amount of decorous flirting with his daughter-in-law. Maybe it was Sophie’s hidden dislike that tipped her off. Her daughter always had had far better instincts than she had.

  “I’m ready,” she said, plastering on her best smile.

  David took a spotless white linen handkerchief from his elegant suit, reached up and wiped her lipstick off her mouth. “There,” he said with a sigh of satisfaction. “That’s much better. Aren’t you going to change your shoes?”

  She’d loved that bright slash of color on her mouth, but marriage was give and take, and she knew David didn’t like makeup. She must have done it subconsciously, just to annoy him. She really had to stop doing things like that or she’d never settle in.

  She looked down at her shoes. She was still wearing the two-inch heels that put her a good three inches taller than David’s blond head. They were the brightly colored espadrilles she’d picked up in Mexico, with straps around the ankles that made her strong legs look sexy. She sighed. “Sorry, I forget,” she said, kicking them off and going in search of the ballet slippers he preferred. He followed her, shoes in his hand. “Sorry,” she said again, grabbing the plain black flats. She had a weakness for shoes, and she always left them all over the place, and David was always picking them up. He moved past her, placing them in the labeled cubby hole of the custom closet that both delighted and intimidated her with its strict organization, then held out his arm.

  “Where’s Sophie?”

  “I told her she could spend the night at Kristen Bannister’s. You know what a math wonk she is—she promised to help Kristen understand the bizarre properties of God knows what, and I knew we wouldn’t want to be late.”

  Just the faintest flash of impatience on David’s handsome face, gone almost as it appeared. “There are times I think you married me for the math program here in town.”

  “Of course not. Just because her gift for math makes me feel like the village idiot doesn’t mean I’d run off with the first man who had access to an accelerated math program. I had no i
dea the local high school was so good.”

  “I told you,” he pointed out. “When you were having trouble helping her. Homeschooling can only take you so far.”

  “I married you for you, David,” she said firmly. “How can you doubt it?”

  “I don’t,” he said, looking happier. “It’s just that my father adores Sophie and he doesn’t see her often enough.”

  But Sophie didn’t adore his father. “Schoolwork comes first, don’t you agree?”

  “Of course.” As a college professor he couldn’t very well say anything else. “We’ll have to bring her over for dinner some time this week to make up for it.”

  “Of course,” Rachel said. Sophie would go if she asked her to. But Rachel hadn’t lived thirty years, half of them on her own, without learning how to get what she wanted. After all, she was doing this for Sophie, giving her a sane life away from the nomadic travels that had suddenly turned tragic, giving her access to the kind of school that would nurture her extraordinary gift. Sophie had better things to do than cater to the overweening vanity of an aging academic.

  Then again, Rachel had better things to do herself, and yet she was going off, the perfect faculty wife in the perfect little college town where it never stopped raining and she felt like she was slowly suffocating….

  “Are you all right?” David said, his voice soft with concern. “You clutched my arm.”

  “Just a hand cramp, darling. I’ve been working too hard.”

  He smiled at her fondly. “I love it that you’ve kept up with your photography, but you know you don’t have to. I make more than enough for both of us.”

  They’d had this discussion before, and they’d probably be still arguing about it on their deathbeds, seventy happy years from now. She shoved her hair back from her face. “It’s not about the money, David. It’s who I am.”